Mrs E. A. Derbyshire
105, Boughton Green Rd.
Northampton, NN2 7SU
Mrs Lynette Rose Derbyshire
15 Chestnut Street,
Sunday. March. 6th 1994. 10:40 a.m.
My dearest Rose (and John) of course!
thank you for your sweet card. I always associate you Rose with flowers, I think your Amyrillis quite beautiful & a work of art.
One day recently I counted the pictures I have received from you over the last year. & I have more than 80 so I feel I know her "Royal Highness" right from birth she is quite something & I'm sure keeps you on your toes! She is at an inquisitive age & I know can be very tiring but she seems to learn very fast, your patience will be sorely tried at times but at the same time it is wonderful to see a child develop & you will have some fun & laughs too. & she will repay your love & care a thousandfold I'm sure. She is a lucky little girl to have such loving caring parents. Rose, I'm so glad you have found a friend & John tells me you have joined a club, good for you dear, it will get you out of the house a bit & I hope make you more friends. I know you've had a dredful winter but pray for better weather for you & some warm sunshine
Of course dear, I understand your feelings at your mother's death, & respect you for them, you have coped very well & my heart aches for you. Rosie dear, I don't wish to be morbid, but this last 3-4 weeks I have felt so ill, gasping for air & so alone I have thought a great deal about death & at times would have welcomed it. There didn't seem any point to life any more, then when I got over these awful feelings I thought of you & Nelly & John & had something to keep me going. Our weather is depressing, grey & dull & cold. but we've had very little snow. I would love to ring you Rose, but I think of the cost. I hardly use the phone at all. I'm sorry your father is so depressed, dear, do give him my good wishes I wish I could communicate with him, but I do understand how he feels, one always feels some regret & guilt at such times, but dwelling on the past is a useless occupation I think it best to take "one day at a time". Longing to see you. Take good care. I am always
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